God is awesome

Yesterday I have the privilege of reading a testimony about an Indonesian Christian who was murdered, went to heaven and came back alive. There were pictures of his neck almost cut off and other gruesome stuff. While in heaven he was sent into a room and waited. In his mind, he was contemplating whether he made it to heaven or not. Below is the excerpt of his testimony:

I was taken by the angels to the next room or second room, the same with the first room, but here my soul saw people with the same face and same body posture. Then i was taken to the third room, which is the same like the first room. And my soul said: "This is people who believe in Jesus Christ, taken here." Then my soul was taken to the fourth room which is the last room, on this time i was alone, the angels wasn't with me. That room was empty then my soul said: "This is the last judgement, am i going to heaven or hell."

1 Peter 4:17-18 For the time has come for judgment to begin at the house of God; and if it begins with us first, what will be the end of those who do not obey the gospel of God? Now “ If the righteous one is scarcely saved, Where will the ungodly and the sinner appear?”

Then my soul walked about 3 to 4 steps, in front of me there's a shine and that light so bright like a sun, so that my soul couldn't see or stare. I closed my eyes and heard: "Kneel!" On that moment my soul knelt down, then I saw a bible being open and from the inside came out words...... My soul spoke: "God...! this is what i did last week, last month, last year. I did those evil things and i did not confess personally, so You write them in here." “"God...! I want to be like the brother and sister's in the first room, always sings and worship You. God...! I know You died on the cross to take away my sins, I long to be like the others in the first room, second and third who always Worshiping You."

After that the written words that came out of the book disappear, the book became clean without written words on it, then the book disappear and the bright light disappear and there's a voice said: "Go home! Not yet time to serve Me."

I was deeply stirred by this testimony thinking to myself what if I died today without knowing Jesus. It would be dreadful coming into the Presence of Jesus, feeling guilty and condemned. God is the holy Judge. There is no escape from the inevitable punishment for what I deserve.

But then Jesus came to die for me at the cross so that I would not be judged for my sins. I can rest assured that if I die today, I will not be condemned. How awesome is His grace towards me.

Rom 5:6-10 For when we were still without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die; yet perhaps for a good man someone would even dare to die. But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him. For if when we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more, having been reconciled, we shall be saved by His life.